Some of my older videos, when I was still getting the hang of recording, just kind of suck. I have also had a lot of videos muted for copyright song usage and I'd have to redub them. Lastly, I have a crap load of drawing videos that I made by request for a friend that make a hideous picture in the end. I'm a bit embarrassed about the finished product but people have gone out of their way to specifically ask me not to delete them because at the very least, the tips are useful. So I kind of want to annotate them or something to warn people the final product is a little blah... but it seems like SO much work to get in and clean up that account that I almost want to just dump it all.
I probably shouldn't. I have something like 600 subscribers and some of them may want access to those videos in future even if I'm not 100% pleased with them. Actually, I think if I deleted the instruction video on how to make Tsumami Kanzashi, I'd have a zillion people trying to burn my house down in revenge and steal my laptop for the video. I still get more viewers and comments than anything else I've ever done for that video, even two years later. I just kind of cringe looking back at my old work and how sloppy the account is. x...x That's even more subliminal pressure to me to make something really good.
Well... if I don't come up with something big (or something at all,) I might miss out on my opportunity. I'm going on an extended vacation and, although I'll still do some projects, they're all bound to be smaller and simpler without access to my usual studio. Something has got to happen...
Besides taking time to let my hands' tendon problems heal up, I also took all that time away from wire working because I was having trouble locating a source for tiny leaves.
I have been trying to make my own components and perfect them for almost three years now. The road has been fraught with... well... not succeeding.
I've made my own molds and used pulped up and stiffened mulberry paper... but that didn't work.
So many options... so much promise... such a disappointing failure. x...x
I still work with a selection of commercially made leaves. I looked into my own silk leaf iron, but for the cost and lack of flexibility with size and design, it would only jack up costs and offer me no benefit, nor be any better than what I could buy anyway.
I also spent a lot of time experimenting with making my own roses. Most were pretty impractical for what I needed them for... like this ribbon rose (that looks more like the beginning of a gardenia because I suck.)
Or would just be too bulky,
Like these felt roses. Good try, but no use.
Then there was the clay rose kick, which I used for decorating fans and this house sign I made (yes, I know it's spelled wrong, thank you. Two French students assured me "petit" was correct and then half of YouTube informed me I was missing a little something. I intended to fix it... eventually...)
I even had a video about all kinds of failed rose making... (although watching this, I kind of cringe at my cliche crap like fried egg clay charms and strawberry felt cake... forgive me. I'm SO sorry. I've definitely made some video mistakes in my past... *cough cat ear headband cough*)
Finally I settled with hand painted paper. This one was hand cut from filter paper, but it still needs a little tweaking on the color. Getting the balance of watercolor is tricky. Paper flowers are my favorite because they look the most realistic and soft and it's also a nod to paper flower making of the past, which has been a popular pasttime since at least the Victorian era even if it's dropped off in popularity these days.
So that settles it for roses after three years of scrapped projects at the drawing board it all comes down to painting paper. Yay for me!
But leaves... those are still an issue. I got into more obscure millinery sources to find new fabrics and cuts for my leaves because I wanted a more unique look and to move away from basic craft store components so I could maintain an original product that couldn't be easily imitated. Combining new leaves with different kinds of wires and hand painted flowers was finally pushing my wire pieces in the direction I wanted to go, but I still liked having my usual leaves on hand.
Even if they WERE more plain, they still made a good staple leaf and looked nice with roses (uh, because they were rose leaves..)
One used to be able to buy three different sizes of wired stem rose leaves (As in the picture above) at almost any craft store in the wedding supply aisle, but now they've fallen off of the face of the planet. For over a year, I've been negotiating with floral supply companies in an attempt to get these re-manufactured for me and nobody can come up with anything. I'm sure kicking myself in the butt for not locating hoards of these wholesale style while I could. In the mean time, I've found a seller in the UK who offers something similar (as well as tiny ivy leaves! yay!) But they're expensive and I don't want to run the risk of the source stopping selling out of the blue like with my 3/4" rose leaves. Well... I just had to wait eagerly for them to arrive.
Unfortunately, when I got them I found I'd spent a not inconsiderable sum on leaves that ranged from 'meh, I guess' to 'wow, I could never use these and maintain my dignity.'
Balls. If anybody out there has old stashes of unused floral supplies I could buy or knows where to find 3/4" or 2cm length leaves of any variety, please DO be a doll and let me know! :D Yellow artist needs leaves, badly.
This all begs the annoying question: With this upcoming year full of traveling and a move coming up, should I just figure 'what's one more year lost?' and wait? The desire to do what I love doing battles with the feasibility of running a business while not living at home. I've done this often enough to see what a stressful struggle it is (and how much damage can occur to retail product...) when you need to pack up and head to the next spot again.
;....; I wish I had a boss to tell me what to do and manage junk problems like this so I could just focus on creating things.