2.07.2011

Blogging without obligation

My random attempts to publish a blog on a schedule are usually met with the same patterns most of our good intentions get: Great effort for the first few weeks followed by dwindling performance. It's not that I don't like to blog. On the contrary- I do very much, or I wouldn't be doing it. I think what I don't like is feeling like I'm supposed to blog on a schedule because that's what "Successful" blogs need to do. Sometimes having a weekly goal feels like a great motivation and a fun challenge. Other times, like now, when I feel like I need to focus on some health and family issues I have in my life, trying to post on a weekly basis takes the joy and quality out of my posts as I try to make sure I get something- anything- up in time for Tuesday. Not only does it kill my creativity, but I end up feeling guilty if my life overtakes... um... my life and my blog misses posts or my content is flimsy. I don't think that's how blogging is supposed to feel. : \

I think there's a lot of pressure on blogging these days when you're using your blog as a business tool. It's really easy to start feeling like you need to follow this (admittedly tried and true) recipe Or Else You Will Fail As An Artist and every week you choose not to post or your post kinda sucks is like a direct damnation of your ability to survive or be appreciated as an artist.

Everyone is trying really hard to 'make it big' with their blog and collect more followers and market, market, market. I'll admit I've caught myself running that race a little bit, but I have stopped to think about what I wanted to do with my blog, my You Tube, and my business in the last few months and more and more I've realised I don't -want- to market and brand myself and make it big. There's so much drama, pressure, and criticism that comes with notoriety and the race to get there and while I'm sure many people find joy and fulfillment in their public success, I crave a more intimate and quiet life.

I suppose what I'm saying is not that I don't want to be successful or that I don't get a special cuddly tingle from having people want to look at what I make and appreciate it. Trust me I do or (once again,) I wouldn't be blogging. I think what I'm saying is that any success I have I would like to be organic and natural and gentle. When I'm just making things I find lovely and sharing them, life feels satisfying. When I spend some time making some stuff and then the next 10 hours hopping around social networking sites and forums pimping myself and staring at my Followers counter and hoping it will rise, the joy fizzles out of life and my business becomes a matter of always feeling like I'm never doing enough.



So, having gotten really close to deciding to 'quit' YouTube, Blogging, and even business and keeping art a private joy a couple times in the past few weeks I decided not to be so silly. Rather than quit things I love doing, I should just fire my proverbial bad manager and kick the concept that I need to drill myself into the ground doing Blogs-As-They-"Should"-Be and such and just embrace working and sharing on my own terms and let people either like it or not like it, as they wish. 

I'm identifying with the Blogging Without Obligation team now. : D


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•Because its okay to just say what you have to say. If that makes for a long post, fine. Short post, fine. Frequent post, fine. Infrequent post, fine.

•Because sometimes less is more.


•Because only blogging when you feel truly inspired keeps up the integrity of your blog.


•Because they are probably not going to inscribe your stat, link and comment numbers on your tombstone.


•Because for most of us blogging is just a hobby. A way to express yourself and connect with others. You should not have to apologize for lapses in posts. Just take a step back and enjoy life, not everything you do has to be “bloggable”.


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I don't want to count my Followers, I want to enjoy talking with the people who read and comment on my blog.

I don't want to post something just because I feel like it's been too long without a post.

I don't want to NOT post something I really like because I'm worried people will think it's too similar to another post.

I don't want to edit my posts down to two sentences and 5 photos. I talk a lot and long. That's how and who I am.

If I need some time to myself, I'll make a point from now on to at least post that I'm having a break instead of just disappearing, but I won't feel guilty about my time off. Everyone needs a break and just because I'm taking some time for myself instead of crafting and creating at hyper speed doesn't mean I'm not still an artist.

I also won't feel guilty about doing things my way. I don't need success someone else's way to feel successful in my own way.

I think I'll be much happier now.





Do you ever find yourself doing something you realise doesn't satisfy you because you think you need to? What was it? Have you been able to kick the habit?